< f*** >

i used to think if you have done all you can in achieving something, whatever the outcome, it probably doesnt matter.

but when you thought you have given it your all, the worst thing to happen happened. Your mind got everything screwed and there it goes. Efforts straight down the drain. In a moment of folly or perhaps mismanagement, it seems, it is beyond salvage. and you knew, you could have better the situation.

if what I thought I am good at, I actually wasn’t. what makes of those that I have absolutely no interest in?

felt guilty. cos after the stats exam, Yirui ask me how do I answer a particular qn. I retorted: please don’t ask me anything bt stats! Sorry bro!

f***.

boss managed to tell me 2 seemingly hilarious jokes thg the first one is not funny and the second too funny and I heard it before.

whatever. when can I stop cursing?

< appreciation >

I dont know why essentially, it took carrie chong to enlighten me: “I had a great time going visiting over the weekend. I had never been so happy visiting my nephews, nieces, aunts & uncles. You have got to realize that they wont be there forever. “

I used to dread cny. its like a social gathering but with no essential common topics. And the aunts and uncles will ask the same thing, apparently for the sake of asking. Relatives alike will gather for their ritual cards sessions which I have no interest in. so each yr, I jus sat in front of the telly, prob trying to say bit of stuff here & there. How trying can I get. It gets even tougher when u werent close with them at all.

Contrary to what I think, this cny is still not as bad as i thought it would end up. rather their question of the day for me: "are u working already? still studying ah??" i have to rake up my history and reiterate my situation. its alright, i guess. used to it already.

Come on! Life still moves on regardless of its history.

my newfound discipline

my skin has gone sallow from the late nights.

my unkempt hair speaks for itself.

i upset my mealtimes & receive countless naggings.

i chose to hit the books when there are numerous shows to entice me

However~

i rejoice at my newfound discipline.

< untitled >

thurs is the last day of school. feel so nostalgic. but i guess we have to move on ya! exams are coming in 2 weeks time! hope my dear class will do well for this coming exam! likewise for sheena & sandy ya! will miss the class de!

i need all the time i have to study. amidst val day and cny celebrations. i am all geared up.

< i need. >

am suffering from proj fatigue now.

i am so tired of them.

allow me to complete them with ease.

i need a crash course in accounts.

i need more than understanding in macroecons.

i need memory work for marketing.

i need practice for stats.

i need to ace my It module.

i need more than a pass in my oral comm.

i need everything i am in need of.