< fr_str_ti_n>

One down, three more to go.

I couldnt stand it when things are moving slower than the pace of a tortoise. Especially when datelines are near. This is getting frustrating. But I choose to keep my cool.

There are some people you just wont connect with no matter how fun loving they are. Or is it so? I am stil wondering if it has got to do with the fact that I am rather boring. I am merely watching the days passed. Oughta make life more interesting, or I gotta perish with boredom soon after.

I am starting to boycott those charity organizations where the so-called fund raisers present u a piece of laminated proof and urged you to make a donation but did no attempt to document the funds raised. I like to think that they are worthy causes, though I almost never had this kind of feeling after I made the donation. Imagine walking out of a mall having spent a decent sum and you are approached to make a donation, pulling at your heartstrings. Conscience pricks on me to do something with the little yet significant money I have to the needy or poor. Instead I felt all the more uneasy as I move on and realize it might be a hoax. I shall channel my money to real worthy causes. The recent spate of abuse of public funds is getting on my nerves. wth. I shall learn to say NO.

< restlessness >

I cant explain this phenomenon.

Its like a gush of wind that sweeps me away from what I wanna do.

And I am left stranded.

With lots of chores that are soon due.

A guilty soul with a weak spirit.

More than what fatigue can inflicts.

Retail therapy is only temporary.

If only I have a strong heart to see me through.

< relations in question >

If time is what most deemed to be difficult to manage, I say human relations are greater challenges that take more than time to fathom. Much less manage them well.

Met up with sec sch clique in the noon. A bdae celebration for Yan. minus a bdae cake and a song. a celebration like this seems all too simple. but am glad she like the shrug we got her. at least its something i rmbed she like. still. we dont seem to have lots to update. not that we are in touch very frequently. cant get it. will there come a time when we have nothing to say to each other? i refuse to think i have a problem. or do i? and i really thought girls can talk.

went for shg planning. fellow volunteers are giving me positive vibes. I knew i want to impact in a positive way too, amid my lethargy. I hope to break out of that soon. this year will be a great year, i reckon. working with great people. resilience is my middle name now.

Went to Fred 21st bdae celebrations at his place alone. dear jerry didnt realize its this sat and thought its the next. hence couldnt make it for the party since he was on duty. we missed seeing each other again! better meet up soon k! saw many familiar faces thg. was talking with this guy called Moses. quite chatty and charismatic i say. esp since i dont know him. thought he is the another Moses whom i rmb i dont have a good impression of. but luckily he isnt. anw, he looks bit like jerry thg. couldnt really fit into the awkward girl groups that Fred 'assigned' me to. talking to pple whom i probably will only see them today and wont ever meet again? so i sat with Moses outside the flat to chat. was rather curious with how he looks like in yj since others says he slimmed down quite alot and the fact that he kept harping on it. checked the yj yr book when i gt back. he changed alot. size aside, he has got a lip ring and a tongue stud. but stil pretty vocal i guess. whatever. i wont be meeting him in future too. ah ha.

am occupied with various projs under my belt. i want to do well. but laziness kicks in more so often. i hope for the best.

< the book of memories >

Twenty-one years.

I want to live, not merely existing.

A brilliant twist of fate.

Met people who impacted my life.

More to come, I hope.

Felt a need to bring about a positive influence.

To the society and small innocent minds.

A concerted effort.

Sprinkled in the exquisite book of memories.

Will keep it close to me.

A cake and a song.

Makes my day.

Thanks to all.

< welcome 2007~ >

yoz! i missed blogging. but i have no idea why i cant publish my prev posts. anyway.

new year is here. i don wish to make any resolutions cos i knew i am not capable to fulfil them. so what if i have plenty of lists marked with what i want to do. i am simply not resolute enough to achieve them. and i knew it long ago. shall stop deluding myself.

there is no need to write down the things that you really wanna do. you just do it.