life at a compromise

retail presentation on thurs is total madness. even as it turned out to be a disaster, i wont let it bother me. bless my group members despite the blunders i have made. i dread retail tutorials in future. will consider skipping them i promise. cant stand the utter disrespect that she has for us. plus all the sarcasms and her incessant display of cheapskate-ness.
she disgusts me, totally.

projects are piling and submission deadlines nearing. dreading them. totally. the mad rush for projects is not getting any better. and i am still trying to play my part well.

lacking the sense of urgency these days. been late for classes every now & then. i so dread going to school.

give me a reason to go to school, pls.

my mood swings are getting serious. false pretense is so fake. and i am so bad at socialising la.

miss my friends so much. all of u are not forgotten. promise.

grabbed

No man’s an island to himself.
I probably cant stand loneliness as much as I thought I can.
My trusty companion-aka-mp3 kinda died on me today.
And I felt helpless.
I need lots and lots of great music to keep my life going really.
I missed out on lots of catching up with my dear friends.
And I am having more and more hi-bye friends.
No fancy dress or outfit catches my eye like before.
I am toying with the idea of designing them myself.
Yes, delusion again.
Am stil trying to see the goodness in everything.
Rest is insufficient for rejuvenation.
The exhaustion is way beyond.
I need an elixir, please.

< awesome art! >

today's ST life piqued my long-time interest in graffiti art!
has been eyeing this white sinister character in some alley somewhere in bugis street ever since dont-know-when. and so i finally knew it today! go check it out! http://thekillergerbil.com/blog.html
cool stuff they got there! and the crew's been pretty established already!
and to think i actually thought of becoming a graffiti artist when i went to temasek poly's open house a year ago. i still love visual arts as much.

but i stil cant draw. aww.ww.ww...

< cdac camp >

sat was fun! not really the camp in itself, but the company, i say! the camp was held at SDC then Fuhua Sec in the evening. i have no idea why the JJC kids have so many weird cheers! Peishan & I were awfully taken aback! pls stop the 'yuan de bu nen na, bian de ke yi na'! it's just so...oh-man! we were both assigned along with Teck Chew & Wei Quan. and the 2 boys seem to always have something to say that will shock the hell out of us 2. what are the kids thinking these days man? child psychology is really hard to fathom. the AJ kids were really fun. i was pretty much amazed by Mavis's infectious laughter and Jack's animated mannerisms. cool kids they really are. i have to stop calling them kids though. but again, to me, they are the epitome of young people. zestful, enthusiastic, cheerful and what have you. not like this haggard old lady here ya.

too bad i didnt stay for the night. nevertheless the AJ mentors had done a great job in coordination, i must say!

movie dual-thon

went watch 'Men in White' with Jiahui & Shijun. if i know the contents of the film would be as such, I wont suggest watching it. there are many inklings to the local context though like the reserving of seats using tissue packets, and the presence of dialects in whatever 'foul-words' have you. no strong theme in the film. or i cant sense it. a very haphazard plot. such that i am not in the least enlightened in the ghost-ly world. quite disappointing i reckon.

but i am not losing hope in the local film industry. just that there is much that we need to work on.

went back Yishun GV to watch 'Shrek 3' with shrek! & Zhong Ren! I love Shrek so much! Shrek is oh-so-cute! charming in his own way i say! though a Ogre, he is comfortable in his own skin! Jus so how many of us are? I like to think I have long passed the stage of finding an identity for myself. or the need to deliberately carve an image of how i want others to perceive me. wishful thinking indeed.

i havent been sleeping well these days. and i thought tonight will be a relief. Eu says there is a mistake with the order of her mattress althg they delivered the bed frame all the same. so no mattress! huh! what is this. gotta wait til coming tues. arghz.

away with bed bugs for good!

i cant stand myself. again.
fancy blogging away when my ict is still hanging in the air. damn.
cant help it. i need to rant.

i was so disgusted today.
was taking my sis & my bedshts to wash and discovered the root of our 'rashes' problem.
its the BED BUGS! i wanna scream man!
eeekkks!
for once, i really hate these creepy crawlies so much!
dont pple always end off with "good night, sweet dreams, dont let the bed bugs bite." dah!
now its goosebumps for me. and ya, Jiahui, thanks for enlightening me the other day too!
all the bugs are getting on my nerves!
can i still adore my trusty gecko?
wait til it drops its tail on me!
i probably need some time then.
spent almost the entire day dumping the mattresses & cleaning my room.
how busy can i get.
my bed is ok actually. but Eu needs a new one. yea, finally!
now now, our room is clean-er.
may we 2 able to sleep soundly as of today please.
we really had enough.

< disgust >

i hate it when i cant get my point across.

i hate it when everything runs loose.

i loathe my failing memory.

i condemn the ict proj that is due on mon. totally.

it simply sucks the hell out of me.

i detest the idea of going to school.

it is a total bore.

i cant stand the countless rashes appearing.

on my legs. and counting.

i am driven nuts.