"anti-sociality"

i dont like how it feels. like you know the person. and you dont know the person.
i wasnt exactly thrilled when i knew i am in classical as my first stop in tep. but then again, disgruntlement will always sink in no matter what. given any stopover, i will stil whine. forgive me. i gonna stop whining.

looking on the bright side. at least a handful of the class are in classical. less unfamiliar faces, though it stays unfamiliar all the same.

*******

i used to have this worldly dream when i was young. That is to make friends from all over the world. i liked it when i know people and its through these people, you learn of different experiences, perspectives, and gain invaluable friendship.
but i realise it takes more than time & effort.
it takes both hands to clap.
and like any kind of relationship, both parties need to reciprocate.

i cant really explain how it feels. but i know my anti-socialness is kicking in already.