stagnation

my blog had been stagnant for so long.
and yes, its busy with no clear direction.
and rushing to meet DEADy-lines.

i dread. i dread. i dread.

sat mornings sense my refusal to wake up.
used to look forward to tuition classes.
but now i am so drained.
again and again.
i seemed to have lost why i took them up in the first place.

if work is supposed to make life meaningful,
i am deemed to have lost the essence of working
and savouring the experiences that comes within.

i just found out a few things recently. and my, how ignorant i am.
that i dont know what i ought to know.
and how horrid the feeling can get.

i fail to ask, question, ponder and reminisce.

worse.

everybody is moving on. and

i realise, i have not moved on.