< love-hate >

It seems so easy to feel sad. It’s just this wave that engulfs you and in no time, you have to surrender and admit defeat. you dont cry nor whine. but just feel nostalgic. you long for time to pass quickly yet at the same time you dont like it when age gets in on you.
Just hope my this nasty current of distress wont spread to the young & impressionable. They ought to be immersed in joy. optimism. innocence. contentment.

GSS is here! and i thought i would be way excited. and commit lots of impulsive acts, or rather great buys. but as it is, the shopping bug dont seem to catch on me yet. maybe it is a good thing. after all, i ought to save, save, save. earrings are never enough. i look with envy at the pretty pendants on the lush window displays. and that cartier ring and bangle. i keep complaining that my wardrobe is drab and i need more accessories, new tops, and bottoms! best if i can fit into those skinny jeans! i am also starting to fall in love with high heels man!

BUT i have earrings that have yet to be worn. and countless of accessories that i have not been wearing. its such a waste & i have to keep reminding myself that perhaps, i dont need them at all. they dont complete me as a person. and i am so lazy to dress up too. And i knew I would teeter, rather than strut elegantly in those stilettos. moreover, i should better my finances. probably invest. ha! or engage in more meaningful pursuits like music or something.

i can be so full of contradictions sometimes.