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exams are finally over. i knew i wanted to enjoy then, but dont think thats what i want to now.

went to sasa's office on fri but alas, was told that the wda personnel aint able to attend and hence gotta go back on the coming thurs again. but after leaving the office, bouts of anxiety surfaced. i had to get an average of Bs. its perhaps the first few times that i feared getting below average or worse, failing...
i know whatever i said now is of no use now. but i really cant help but feel disappointed. i used to believe that as long as one had done and strove for the best, it doesnt matter what the results come may. this is perhaps how i delude myself all this while. i am not doing my best. any rational person would want to reap what one sow. or if possible, reap more than one sow. who would want their efforts to go unrecognised?

i dont know what to do now. hols ald. but a complete lost of direction.

maybe i should start preparing for my supp papers. really.